It is not me but you....

It is not me but you that made me despicable to myself, to you, and probably to him. It is not me that made him despicable to you and to me and probably to himself.

Everyone needs love. A vow is not the same as love. A person needs love and even in a vow you cannot chain it. What made you so arrogant to stop loving someone whom you vowed to love for the rest of your life? What made you cold? You are a beautiful person who seek to be loved and somebody loved you, who was with you, who cried for you, who reached out for you but you gave your cold shoulder, your cold and stiff back on a wanting and lonely person. What made you do that? Did you have everything you need in this world that one person is not needed anymore?

I did not mean to seek, I did not intend to meet. I was there when he cried while you were in pain. I did not know where I was but I was there. And he wept for you. And I wept for the love. It was not mine and never will be. It was always for you. But you shunned it, or so it was said.

I only needed a friend. Yes I am somebody's daughter and I always will be, my Father has forgiven me a long time ago when He sent His Son to the cross. Just remember He has forgiven you too, but have you forgiven anyone?

It is not me but you.

I have loved you even before I met you; you were a part of my life even when I was not a part of yours. I have felt your pain even before you knew my existence. I have cried for you a thousand times and more. And I will cry more even though you will never hear. I love you and your life despite your wrath. You may take back everything that was yours because they are meant for you, but you left it to breath and cry on its own. Learn to understand, learn to feel beyond your own pains. You are loved, and you will always be but you didn't want to love in return.

Seek perfection in a world full of hatred, we are all the same. We are blind, and deaf, we do not hear even when it is too close. We cannot see, cannot hear. Just feel what is real and maybe you will understand. Seek love, offer it, give it back and you will see.

It is not me but you.

For you

You are some-bodies daughter. But give me reason to breath, there are times that I feel I could drown without water, give me time to see, just one dream that I thought was “all” mine. I felt the wind and the water; I saw the sun and the rain, that’s become my pain. YOU took it all, but I took the fall -but forgive your sins, your his daughter, but please pray for me. I am really afraid because each day is the same, you are some-bodies daughter; day after day I feel the pain, because of your shame but I remember you are some-bodies daughter. You took him away and gave me no say. Please, see how I feel, I try to ease my pain, its to real. I feel might be killing me inside. Free me from your lie, that is cold, that is life. I was the dutiful lover, I am the perfect mother. Do I pray to forgive the sins of the “other” but please pray for me. If you just opened your eyes and tried to read between the lines, you would see, you are some-bodies daughter; GOD forgive the sins of “your daughter”, but please pray for me!!!

Pray God Forgives All Your Sins.